Help!!! is there anyone who is like me to talk to??

[Kathy]

I am fairly new to this forum and am going through some hard times. I'm looking for someone who i could talk to without judgement...I am 25 yrs old and have had a hard life ( like a lot of people )  and am very emotional. I don't handle stress well. At an early age i became a cutter to deal with the stress and the high negative emotions.

My family is about to be evicted from our apt and i feel the negative energies tugging at me,practically pushing me toward the blade.I AM NO SUICIDAL!!!! It's just the release i have found,a sort of purge.is there anyone who is willing to talk to me. I fell alone!!

Blessings~
Kathy.

[Kaleesie]

Im no doctor. But if you just want to talk about things, you know, get them off your chest so to speak, you can pm me, or continue this thread. I know things like this are very personal.
At any rate, feel free to ramble and i will listen. I've already lit a candle for you.
Blessed Be
Kaleesie

[dragonheart123]

I have been to the bottom too.I used to cut and once wished to die.then i found faith.Keep positive.Life gets better.

[Kathy]

Thank you both for you positive energies and the candle!
i had recently givin in    but i will start anew again.
I just spoke to my landlord and they are filling the court papers now so i have probably 3weeks to pay or move.Which ever comes first. HOPE IT'S MONEY!
At least the apt manager is very nice and kind about it. She's very sweet. Well i will give an update soon when i find out more.
Thank you again!

Blessings~

[wiccanwoman5]

Hang in there, Kathy.  PM me for a pep talk.  Have faith and DON'T do anything rash.   

[MoonDancer886]

I used to be a cutter as well, but I found solace in my writing. I can understand the release that you get because that is what always keeps pulling me back. Be strong and know that there are people out here to talk to.

Brightest Blessings

[Witchezbrew]

Kathy, there are other ways to release these feelings.. If you think there is anything i can do.. PM me!  Or we can talk here if you like?  Please don't resort to cutting!  ~Amy

[Caon-hin]

I to was once a cutter for about to years, I hated life and wished the pain would just go away. Now like others have said i found faith and very happy most of the time. if you like I would happly talk to you, you may pm me if you so wish.

BLESSED BE!

[pegasusangel]

Sending positive energy to you. Please do not cut yourself. There are other ways to let out your frustration and hurt. PM me if you need to. Punch a pillow, wrtie it out in a journal. But, cutting yourself can lead to a lot more than you realize.
Love and Light

[RowanWolf]

Sending [ositive energies your way. and feel free to PM me i use to cut... so i know the urge , im no professional but would love to help or just be a ear for you to talk to

[Kathy]

Sorry for not replying sooner!!! you're all sooo great!

I've been going through a lot of ups and downs,darkness and light. and lost my internet for a while .
Well here's an update...

We were able to pay rent about a week after the first post and were good the court date was closed and it was back to normal. But now it's started all over again
my unemployment was cut off 12/25/2011 Nice gift huh! and know we are definitely going to be evicted now.if the apt files on you 2x then it's automatic eviction no exceptions! they file on the 12th so we probably have 2-3 Weeks to get out if we're lucky. and its almost impossible to find a apt with a eviction an your record.

I had another bout with depression and did not win the fight. These are the ugliest ones yet. so when i was feeling better i threw away my kit.God i wonder if this can be classified as an addiction,i know its a disorder but when i went to the store the other day i found myself in the hardware dept. i Had to leave the store i didn't even get what i was there for.so far it's been 3 months and i haven't "used" but have found that I'm drinking more,and if i fall into another bout it gets worse.

My new project that will now have to wait was getting diagnosed as PTSD, chronic pain, and depression for my green card but i have to deal with all the new dilemmas first.

Thanks for your help and time. I feel blessed to have found this forum and all of you!

Blessings~

[truffledude]

Hi. *hugs*. I'm a cutter too. I'm doing better and the urge still pops it's ugly little head up sometimes. Back in September I had to go get stitches on my left forearm and did 5 days in the psych unit. With a good therapist you can be honest with, and possibly meds, You can learn to control it. It's a behavioral addiction. It's just how we taught ourselves to cope with negative feelings. It can be beaten. I'm praying for ya'.

[Kathy]

Hi. *hugs*. I'm a cutter too. I'm doing better and the urge still pops it's ugly little head up sometimes. Back in September I had to go get stitches on my left forearm and did 5 days in the psych unit. With a good therapist you can be honest with, and possibly meds, You can learn to control it. It's a behavioral addiction. It's just how we taught ourselves to cope with negative feelings. It can be beaten. I'm praying for ya'.

That sucks I'm sorry.
I think that some of mine should have gotten stitches but i learned how to tape them shut and i did have dermal glue and butterflies.my last ones scared me because they took a long time to heal. much longer than any others,and they ended up getting infected.left nasty scars. but i dealt with it myself cause I'm scared of hospital.and that 48 hour hold i was sure would happen if i went.and i don't take pills not even Tylenol,only herbs But since October i have healed and so far so good.
Thanks for the prayers!Your in mine also,good luck!
Blessings~

[LupusStormDancer]

I cut once, and only once then I found the Goddess it's amazing what all Wicca can do for you. Also writing out what your feeling can help. I'm big on writing poetry even drawing what I'm feeling I've gotten some great pieces out of some emotional break downs lol. And sometimes the best way to deal is to talk it out don't resort to hurting yourself it's the worst mistake you could ever make Respect yourself and the gift of life you were given, keep your head up and plow right through your problems. Don't let it keep you down yes it's a VERY hard thing to deal with, but it doesn't mean that's it for you, it doesn't mean it's the end of the world even though it may feel like it. I know how fragile things can get in such emotional situations it's so hard and you feel like nobody understands, but odds are there about 300 people in the same situation as you right now. I know this sounds awfully hokey, but maybe you should try going to group therapy, it's often easier to deal when talking with others who have the same problems with emotional release. Many blessings to you.

                                                                                                                  -LupusStormDancer

[Kathy]

Hi everyone

I have been doing good i haven't cut since my last post. I have been ok and i have to constantly talk my self out of it when i go through bout but all in all still holding firm!
I was in therapy but lost my job and insurance a yr ago so i couldn't go anymore. I have not looked into group therapy thats a good idea. I'll look into that hopefully i can find one that is low cost or free, but we'll see how that goes.
I'll give another update in a few weeks.  Thanks everyone!

~Blessings